I was thinking the other day of how much I love roller coaster rides and realized how closely they resemble my life. The slow climb up, eyes towards the sky, anticipation, the feeling of what lies ahead... then you're at the top, the view is beautiful, there is a quiet silent lull, if only for a moment and then comes.... THE DROP! Suddenly your gut is in your throat, you're racing towards the ground a million miles and hour, air rushing by, and the feeling that you are surely going to be ripped from your seat and go flying into oblivion, but then wait... you hit the bottom and just as quickly your flying up into the air again, upside down, thrown left, thrown right, spinning... and then it stops. You hear someone say, "That's it! Never again!" and they move on to another quiet, more peaceful ride. Then there are those like me that say, "Amazing! Let's do it again!" It's a fun ride when you know it's by your choice and you can choose to get on or not. Not so fun sometimes in real life. The thing is that if we look at the struggles in our life it really is a lot like a roller coaster, and if you think of it that way then you know that eventually the ride will end and you move on to the next thing.
So in saying that I will come back to what's been going on in my life the past month and a half. I'll try to be short and sweet.
1. Find out job is coming to an end and contract will definitely not be renewed.
2. Start job hunt.
3. Send out resume to tons of job posts every day.
4. No calls, no calls, no calls.
5. Pray for new job, have roommate praying for me, have family praying for me, decide that I might want to include friends and anyone I meet in this prayer circle.
6. Keep searching. I will not be jobless!!!!!!
7. Wreck car ~ AND IT'S MY FAULT! Let me explain... Blond hair, red light, BIG FLASHY SIGN! Go right? Reflexes kick in and I press the gas. CRASH!!! Car totalled... :(
8. Remember that I still owe $2700 on a car worth about $500! Great...
9. NO VEHICLE ~ Get a ride from roommate, ride bike to work in 100 degree weather. Forced to walk bike on base since I am not wearing a helmet >:( Have a conversation with God while peddling up hill and dripping with sweat on how I've learned my lesson on doing without. I get it Lord. Really.... I honestly do. .
:(((((
10. Insurance calls. Paying off all but $400 of my loan YIPPY! Blessing in disguise???? I think maybe!
11. Oh yeah... no money for new car. No down payment. Rejected from dealer because of credit. Would have to put down thousands of dollars to get into new car. What to do? Start contemplating buying a scooter.
12. Friend calls and offers to lend money to buy a used car! Time to pay it back... and no interest! Have I told you what great friends I have?
13. Buy 2000 Jeep Cherokee for $2800! I have wheels again!!!!!! I love riding my bike but thank God I only had to ride it to work one day!
14. Still no job...
14. Put out plea on Facebook for job. Friend calls and says they are hiring. Submit resume, get a call the next day, three interviews and now just waiting for background check to clear. Hopefully will be starting soon! Of all the applications submitted and resumes sent the only promising call I got was through a friend. Again, I love my friends!
15. Sunday, go to meet friend for dinner. Car does not start. Battery dead. $20 to my name and still a week til I get paid. Friend buys battery and puts it in for me without even blinking. Did I mention how much I am loved and how much I love my friends?
16. Take drug test for new job and realize I ate a poppy seed muffin at church two days ago! Everyone's teasing me that I'm going to fail the test. I will be SO MAD if I don't get this job because of poppy seed! Roommate reassures me that I would have to eat like a pound of poppy seed and not to worry.
17. Wake up this morning a realize that things are kind of quiet. Am I at the top of the ride or at the end of this struggle? Either way, I might as well throw my hands up! Right? ;)
Sooooo, this is what's been going on with me the past month and why I haven't written. I am here to assure you all though that I will overcome and tackle my elephant!!! He is putting up the fight of his life but little does he know that I am not one! I have God on my side and a network of friends that know the true meaning of paradidomi. Because they give of themselves I am able to overcome and soon I will be able to do the same for someone else.
In the midst of all this I am continuing to work on my photography and will be attending 1st Friday with my amazing friends and City Church Downtown. I am continuing to cutback on what ever I can and only buying exactly what I need to live. I have continued downsizing and only have a few more boxes to go through before I am at about 20% of what my belongings used to consist of about a year ago. The weight that is lifted by giving away what I haven't used is amazing. I figure, let someone else enjoy it and give me some breathing space and less to worry about.
So wherever you are at today on your ride just remember it's one moment of many and as sure as it comes, it will go. Throw your hands up and roll with it!
Thing to remember: Jehovah Jirah
