Well I know it's been a while since I've written and the truth is that I've been in somewhat of a motivational funk lately. With so much on my mind as to what I want to accomplish I have fallen into a slight whirlwind of deep thought and "what now?" stump. I do remember that I promised myself I would stay away from that.
In any case I know that I need to continue to push forward and in doing so this brings me to my next thought which is Realizing the Obvious.
You know there are some things in life that take us forever to figure out, despite the fact that all along the answers were right there in front of our face. Truth is that I think we all pretty much know to an obvious extent what our issues and obstacles are and exactly what we need to do to correct them. Oh what a painful and difficult process that can be though, which most times is why we spend so much time in a place that we don't belong or want to be.
I've been thinking a lot though lately about my life and the all obvious things that have been staring me straight in the face for so long. Sad to say, that I have also been thinking of what I can do to run as far away as possible from those things. I mean isn't that easier, to just completely avoid the obvious? Just kidding... but not really. After all that is exactly why I am here in the first place. Right? Seriously though, the most obvious facts for me are right now are...
1. I need more money.
2. I need to utilize my skills.
3. I need to stay focused, which I am noticing more and more is the most difficult thing for me to do.
4. I need to stay spirit led.
Tell me, why is it so hard to just do what we need to do? I know I am capable so what is holding me back? The answer to me though is quite obvious, it's me. I need to keep pushing. Pushing myself through this and pushing myself to continue to act based on the prize that is waiting for me. I need to be my own motivator and I need to constantly remind myself that it is me that makes the difference and that when I lean on God that I am capable of great things. I just pray that He will continue to bless me and lead me where I need to be.
Well, the news is that since my last post I have applied to get back in school, so we will see how that goes. I am trying to conquer that monster once again. Last week my daughter was involved in an accident so that is going to affect my budget somewhat since I will be getting medical bills for that here soon. I know it's going to take a little readjusting. I'm just hoping that it doesn't set me back too far. Also, I am now tithing at 5% which is becoming a little more difficult but I feel good about it so I'm allowing that to progress. It's now half of what I should be giving and I never thought I'd even be able to do that so let's just keep a good thing going. Oh and my insurance finally dropped to $77! If you remember at the beginning it was over double that so that is one very amazingly awesome thing for me. Also my credit score has gone up 50 pts. So even though it's still not good it shows progress and to me that's all that counts.
I know I'm progressing but it's just that the process just seems so slow at times. I've accomplished a lot in just three months but there is still a long way to go. I am just going to keep chipping away at it though and keep my eye on the prize. They say you have to dig deep in order to get to the diamonds and its the diamond that I want to get to. The diamond of putting all of this behind me and being free. I think my next focus though really needs to be coming up with something to supplement my income. If I can do that then I can skip through this a little easier I think.
Thing to remember: The answer is obvious, it's me.
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